Saturday, October 3, 2009
quarrel again// cuz i request to smoke.. and he dun allow.. but i insist.. sumtimes i really wounder... are we suit for each other?? i know its not good to smoke.. i oso wann quit somking.. but i guess i'm over dependent on cigg.. cuz i know.. every human cum and gg.. i dunno hu will stay and hu will not.. but i know, e day i still hav money.. the day i can affort to have cigg.. cigg has no feeling, it doesnt show mi attitude.. and i hav e full control of weather i wann smk or dun wann.. therefore whenever i had nth to do, bored, i'll smk.. it had became part of my life.. i'm so use to it.. i'm not addited i know.. but i oso dun uds myself why other ppl tat are not addited could hav or dun hav cigg.. but i'll be very irritated if i dun hav... i guess i'm juz too dependen on it.. hais... wad should i do.. i do wish that i could leave on without cigg.. sumtimes.. i juz dun bear to let it gg.. my sucking character.. i dun dare to make a definate decision.. cuz i'm oways afraid that i might regret.. how>? wad to do?? out of the cigg topic>>> hubbie's demand, temper, controlling is making mi so confuse of how much i still love him?? am i wrong?? no one is perfect,, and i shuld not expect him to be perfect.. but wad will he give in?? why am i having this feeling that i'm the onli one that's oways giving in.. am i wrong to have this kind of thinking?? i juz wounder.. i can only have many conclusion now.. am i important to him.. will there be any different if he let mi gg and i realli gg?? will he feel sad if i leave him??
♥ Never Be Replace, the memories-, 9:30 PM.
