cherish-mE

2010-04-18T10:45:00.000-07:00

growing up fast and healthy.. but not e same as our relation.. i wounder how is the 鼠 seed growing le?? 蛇 seed growing up fast in few hours.. from a seedling suddenly shoot up tall:)

can no longer put my care and concern on the person.. can onli care more on our plant... hope it grow up healthy...

2010-04-17T01:02:00.000-07:00

真如我所相信的；你很爱我。。。
在你身上我能相信很多很多。。。我也能知道很多的为什么！

就应为你很爱我；所以我不会放弃；我时间不能改变什么；我相信！

错过了不一定是错过；也许只是一种考验；如果命中注定在一起；不管时间让彼此分开多久；终究还是会回到属于自己的对方。。

hubbie advance bday cake!

2010-04-17T01:00:00.001-07:00

i draw onn the box of the cake:)

almost done:)

done... dun look really nice.. but i did put in alot of effort wor:P

2010-04-17T00:59:00.000-07:00

small little chocolate egg given by hui rong on easter daY!!!

bruises onn my knees...

2010-04-17T00:51:00.000-07:00

Omg... i dunno where and when i got all these bruises... ouch!

2010-04-03T00:51:00.000-07:00

骗人。。全都是骗人的。。。你说

一秒认识你
一分钟喜欢你
一个钟头爱上你
一天就不能没有你
一辈子也不能没有你。。

都是骗我的。。今天所说的；为什么在一夜之间就变得完全不一样？

曾经我认为你是哪个不管发生什么事都不会放下我一个人的！如今我已不能确定是佛会有这种人的存在了！还能抱着希望吗？？？

我永远都不会忘记你是哪个对我来说最特别的唯一。。

谁能告诉我问题是什么？？

2010-03-28T19:29:00.000-07:00

这次我们分开，我比以前艮难过，因为我发现，一个真正有过的爱情应为禁不起考验而淡化了。。彼此明明真心的喜欢过，珍惜过，但却在不只不觉中输给了时间！这感觉应该是很失望吧。。。以前有过无此的背叛和伤害，但都比不过这次，应为以前没有双方的真心；而这次是真心被时间给掩盖了！

Dou dou given buy hubbie:P

2010-03-21T11:27:00.001-07:00

hees:D hubbie give mi de dou dou... can grow up lyt our relationship:P

it's written in chinese Snake and rat!

蛇鼠一窝。。哈哈哈！

2010-02-16T22:29:00.000-08:00

My hubbie is A lion.. roaR////

2010-02-16T22:16:00.000-08:00

hubbie making food for mi.. hees.. i love eating steamboat.. but scare e oil anyhow fly.. hahaha..

this are the food we had..

after actual meal cums desert.. hees.. ice-cream.. yummie..

this is the ice-cream i make for my hubbie.. nice nice.. durain ice-cream.. he love it.. hees..

his jus acting to be great.. LmaO...

eating the desert i took for him.. mummmm...

2010-02-16T22:00:00.000-08:00

hubbie bought this flower for mi at china town as i was buying food to eat.. he suddenly disappear and appear with this flower.. lols..

hubbie pluck this flower for mi... ohhhh... illegal... hahaha...

hubbie give mi this for surprise.. he take the key and i take the heart.. cuz he say he has the key to open the lock to my heart.. hahaha

2 key chain for 1 couple...

2010-02-13T02:57:00.000-08:00

2day outlet dame busy still.. zZz.. at last finish everything liao.. boss ask us to take free item home.. hahaha.. 2nite hubbie got lion dance.. dunno i can get in time to gg anot.. now at my grandma house waiting to eat reunion dinner le.. my little cousin so nosie.. lols.. they really lyt monster wor.. and my 3rd uncle de daughter, oso my cousin so small.. hahaha.. keep burping.. hahaha.. gg to help liao.. hope that it'll be a wonderful new year ahead!!

2010-02-11T16:27:00.000-08:00

Zzz.. tired.. yesterday i skip school.. den gg work at nite.. hope that after new year wun be working so mani days.. seems lyt i've been working to much and missing out alot.. missed alot of things that money cant buy.. i'm the onli student working there that work so mani days.. i think i should not work so mani days ler.. it's tiring mi out liao.. and most importantly i should not have missed out so mani things in my life becuz of work.. it's not everything in my life.. I DUN WANN NO LIFE!!! 2nite i'm working still.. hubbie will be gg buy new year things at nite.. hais.. this year new year i didn't even buy new year clothes.. everyday oso working.. 2ml is new year eve.. i work until the shop close.. zZz/... and i dun think will close on time.. dun understand why this ppl love last min purchasing so much.. love queuing so much.. why why why??? 2ml after work still muz rush over to grandma house to eat reunion dinner.. den at nite hubbie gg for lion dance.. but i dun think i can make it on time to gg wif him.. hais.. everthing so rush.. den new year day dunno wann do wad oso.. sians.. dunno wann wear wad oso... never buy any new clothes.. summore not much clothes at hm oso.. everday not wear sch uniform den is wear work uniform liao.. after new year i think dun wann work so mani days liao.. next week they plan mi work onli off fri.. i think this cannot be the case..

2010-02-08T20:15:00.000-08:00

Ayio.. dame tired loh... Zzz.. lata still got work.. weather so hot!!!! wth.. new year coming.. so mani ppl cum buy things/.. i jus wonder why do this people love to queue so much.. last min purchase do make them so happie?? zZz.. yawn.. sians.. more and more no life liao.. so envious those that so free... can gg outting.. gg holiday.. but i onli can work and sch.. no time for anything else.. hais... 1 more year to finish school.. sch holiday cuming.. but i oso dunno wad i can do.. so paranoid... got time nothing do.. no time oso complain.. wth.. I WANN A BREAK!! i'm suffocating!!!

2010-02-07T19:29:00.000-08:00

Bored.. 2day lesson start at 10am.. teacher forgot, and she came at 8! omG.. poor Mrs Heng.. hahaha.. yest i zZz very early, compared to normal days.. 10pm i went to bedd.. i've been sick the last whole week/... omg! new year is coming.. kind of bored! other den the interest in having ang bao, i guess there's nothing more that can interest mi in new year ba:) hahaha.. common question from my relative will be,, wad are u doing now? schooling or working, schooling at? working as? if i'm doing well, of cuz i'll be glad to share, but truth isn't so, althought it's nothing embarrassing studying in ite, and working as a cashier, but i doubt my relative would give any good comments! this year i dun think i'll be going for lion dance with hubbie ler.. cuz after new year i'm back to busy life, my work and studies.. after that, i hope i can change to part time study and full time work! hope that wun be as tired as now! striving to survive!!

this week i'll be working everyday till new year! a very serious shortage of manpower in my outlet.. i guess i jus have to help out if i can! tot of transfering to another outlet near my house, but i'm so used to my working environment now,, quite relax! lyt my own house, wear n not wear uniform as n when.. eat smake whenever! toking nonsense to my superior.. it's quite a loveable job i had.. the job that i've ever enjoy most..

teacher is back to class.. now we will gg for lunch break/.. lata we'll be having S&W theory exam.. and i'm empty inside.. hahaha.. may god bless mi:$

2010-02-04T00:05:00.002-08:00

my hubbie in mummy won the prize!!!

fish sucking our feet.. eeel.. so tickelish..

his squeezing mi...

2010-02-04T00:01:00.000-08:00

Hubbie de mama birthday..

our 2nd trip tom genting..

2010-02-03T23:47:00.000-08:00

my little tang mei is born:P

2010-02-01T06:29:00.000-08:00

Everything has changed.. i wonder if i still love you?? or am i jus too used to have you around?? i jus cant allow myself to love a person that treated mi so different compare to before... recently, u dun care much anymore,... onli noe how to argue wif mi.. and no longer give in.. your mind is full of my wrong my fault.. u nv realise that it takes 2 hand to clap.. i really getting more and more disappinted in you!! i wonder wad issit?? do i oways have to think that it's really my fault?? and to everytime give in to ur egoistic?? am i not worth anything?? you jus making mi feel that i'm no longer important to you.. i just wonder how long more can this last?? i noe i'm not the person that can tolerate to let myself suffer.. SAY I'M SELFISH.. i admit it.. we learn to be stronger by falling down isnt it?? i guess i've to learn to be independent again.. 你不是一个能够让我依靠的人。在你身上，我再也找不到原本有的安全感。。。我不是一个能让自己委屈的人！

和远康分手的第一小时。。。

2010-01-03T06:59:00.000-08:00

今天我和远康真的分手了。其实问题很久很久以前就一直存在，是我不够成熟吗？谁会喜欢每天对着一幅苦瓜脸？我每次都给他脸色看，就算他家人在场我都不会优于的给他我不爽的脸！我不喜欢呆在家，他每次都想尽地方的带我去。。。他因该很累了吧。。是我的错，还是我们根本不识和？分手后，他告诉我，他很快乐，终于不必再烦恼了！也能和他的家人一起开开心心出国去玩，不用再为我感到烦恼。他一点也不感到伤心。也对啦。我那么难伺候，一点点小事也给他脸看。今天他要送我回家，我还转身就自己走了。他告诉我，在我转身走掉的那瞬间，他也放弃了。这次我不知道是不是再也不回被他抱着原谅，再一次让他包容我的任性。一段感情是不是就是这样呢？明明就不可能有走不完的地方，我到底要些什么呢？出门也给他脸色看，在家也给他脸色看。我为什么那么难满足，知足常乐的道理我懂还是不懂？我会不会后悔所有的一切？婉婷曾经告诉我，我和他是分不开的一对。是真的吗？还是我们根本就禁不起考验？这一次的分手我比较冷静的在思考问题到底是什么？我要的又是什么呢？我们真的是不适合彼此吗？因该再手牵手的走下去？忍耐彼此的优点和缺点？还是就干净利落的各走各的？

2009-12-20T07:03:00.000-08:00

on the actual day of my brithday.. hubbie with baby:P

2009-12-20T06:54:00.000-08:00

Hubbie at tiong baru plaza diao tis white winnie for mi!! hees.. den we gg suntec eat dinner while waiting for the show at tiong baru plaza to start..
hubbie buy mi this jacket so as to always keep mi warm.. hees..

my clique give mi sumthing very funny.. grrr...

momo bought this for mi for my birthday:P

my Dear super nice person give mi this.. hahaha.. HR u dun act ler.. u are as evil as mi loh.. bleah..

2009-12-20T06:53:00.000-08:00

lols.. yan yan de hubby cum fetch her.. hahaha..

2009-12-20T06:47:00.000-08:00

19Dec.. my birthday wor.. mo mo, yan yan, bunny and shannon acc mi celebrate:)

It's been long since i ever celebrate birthday ler.. althought it isnt any big celebration.. but i seiously appreciate my clique and friends being there:P

we when around orchard.. hees.. every resturant is so crowded.. eventually we when to thai restruant.. WoW... lols..

the soup look plain.. but taste SoliD ah.. lols..

2009-12-16T00:42:00.000-08:00

today morning.. i go compass mit my mum eat... den after that she going ubi.. so i ask her shun bian send mi go there.. cuz i wann go there buy fish!!! hees.. mum bought mi a sliver and pink colour bag bag for my birthday :) so Happie.. got present.. hahaha..

Got 1 time pass by this fish shop.. den hubbie saw the fish jiu yi jian zhong jing.. hahaha.. den he thinking which one to buy.. the blue or the red.. den i tell him one small little fish so expansive loh.. he still wann buy!! grrr... in the end.. he nv buy ler..

2day i purposly gg back that shop wann buy.. but the fish looks the same.. hahaha.. den i see got one blue and red de very nice.. i oso dunno which one beta.. both look attractive.. in the end.. i bought two of them back.. lols.. wth am i doing... bought two expansive small little fish.. OMG!!! nvm la..

hubbie happie jiu hao..

we couple couple..

the fish oso muz couple couple ma..

hees...

den the pink one call xiaobudian.. blue one call fatKang..

hahaha.. hubbie lack of nothing.. so i oways find nothing i can buy for him.. so i xiang le xiang..

rather buy sumthink he lyt den sumthink he dun need ma..

And hor,, this fellow.. dame cunning de.. i onli ask him that time that place is name wad.. den he keep asking issit he got present.. OMG.. hen bu shi qu wor.. liddat jiu no suprise ler ma.. grr.. i tel him siao.. i where will gg buy a small little fish so expansive.. hahaha..

indeed.. how cum i buy?? i dunn uds it..

hahaha... nvm.. HAPPIE JIU HAO !!! after buy.. i can find a bus to gg hm.. all the way walk till the macperson mrt station.. den the mrt haven start yet.. arghhh.. and it's raining.. i all the way walk for 5 bus stop.. and eventually rain became so heavy that i stuck at the mrt station outside... ZzZ.. tot of bringing the fish over to his house 1st.. cuz my house think no container.. den the fish put inside bag too long i scare might die.. but.. i realise.. i lost his house number.. so msg his bro ask, his bro no reply!!!! no choice but gg hm 1st liao.. reach hm den his bro reply mi.. it's too late.. diao!!!

tonite i plan to wait for him at his house after he cum back from sch den give him the fish.. think he knew i bought.. but dun think he know that i'll buy two of them...

2009-12-15T08:46:00.000-08:00

hais/.. 2ml off day.. till sun// but hubbie is busy.. his exam cuming.. got assignment.. no time cum fetch mi off work too. feeling moody.. but can uds him. so paronoid. off day oso seems meaningless ler.. without him. going anywhere seems pointless. think i'm too use to him around.. too addicted to him ler.. lyt so no life!!! can i say without him, I AM NOTHING?? hmmm.. how??? so depended on him/... wad if 1 day i lose him??? can i?? can i afford to lose him.. i doubt it myself.. hais.. i miss you ANDY HO!!!

2009-12-11T20:00:00.000-08:00

hubbie buy mi the watch i lyt.. at F.L.Y.. yeah!!!

2009-12-11T19:55:00.000-08:00

mE and baby bring zhi er gg bugis walk walk lo.. park my zhi er de " mini copper" at shopping centre de customer service centre.. lols.. den all the way carring little zhier walk.. hand so tired lo.. his mummy oso can tahan liao.. gg buy slipper wear.. hahaha.. walk till dame late loh.. cuz cant find the things i wann.. eventually.. last min we found everything!! hahaha...

2009-11-30T17:07:00.000-08:00

2009-11-30T16:57:00.000-08:00

why harry oways Zzz with his tongue sticking out lehx??

2009-11-30T16:54:00.000-08:00

mE and Pam Pam inside The MRT wor.. :P

2009-11-30T16:49:00.000-08:00

chocalate kAng kena coffee that day.. arghhh.. den i help him bath:( i think shld let it gg diving soon le.. dunno will have e coffee smell or not!! hais

2009-11-25T22:20:00.000-08:00

Me and my hubbie.. spending our day at marina and suntec:) we eat shushi and hubbie "diao" toy toy give mi!! cuz baby wann that piggy.. so nice:P that pig pig is my hubbie.. now its onn my bagg...

2009-11-25T22:17:00.001-08:00

me and my CLIQUE...

using my laptop web cam take piC!!!

2009-11-25T19:18:00.000-08:00

I'm Angry wif Andy Ho!! arghh.. He not sensative enough.. yest at his house study,, den study finish i ask him help mi on the tv.. and he ask mi onn myself.. but i cant find the switch.. den ask him help mi onn but his heart, sole and everything is wif the laptop!! fcuk!!..

Den after sum showing of face here n there he cum in the room again.. so i went out wif him to the living room watch tv..

Den i help him massage.. after tat left abit time b4 the show end i ask him help mi massage.. but he jus tel mi his tired.. grrr...
wait until the show really end and its time i gg hm den he say wann help mi massage.. spoil my mood liao.. He say i oways show him face.. but he had nv tot of the reason i show him face.. why so blur de..

I'm his galfriend and his neglecting mi and no 1 else.. how shld i feel??
Its different from how he use to treat mi in the past.. and i'm not use to it.. wad shld i do..

I''m seriously not use to it!!

i noe i shld be thoughful and at times i noe i oso didn treat him lyt how i use to be..
had he ever realise??

i oways show him face cuz i jus felt so neglected!!!

he doesn know it at all.. i tried telling him the problem,
but realise that it only turns out as another argument.. hais..

WE JUST CANT COMMUNICATE!!!

2009-11-19T22:26:00.000-08:00

zZz... why issit that everytime it's time for mi to go home after school.. IT RAINS!!! and as time come closer to let mi go home.. IT RAINS HEAVIER!!! what is wrong!!! grrr... 2day all my friends go home ler.. and i'm still in school.. cuz i have to attend my CCA to get my CCA points.. seriously i nv join in.. cuz too mani ppl liao.. and i'm lyt onli coming here to eat.. dots... jus now i went to the library wif affandi/.. cuz we early dismiss.. he need go for the class at 2pm... den half way inside the library..

GTS(I WANT DESTROY YOU!!) come in..

HE actually sits beside mi.. overall.. he was very polite.. he ask if anyone using the computer beside mi.. although its in a monotone.. but still i'm nv afraid of him.. hahaha.. shannon is still in the class.. he got his miting to attend.. lols.. finally..

the rain is smaller..

later i still need go work..

bunny is having bowling competition now.. hahaha.. wounder if she "wash the DRAIN.. " hmmm... tonite can hughug my hubbie ler..

my hubbie is too busy.. and is always feeling tired.. sumtimes i do felt negleted.. but i must uds that he needs to work and study at the same time.. same as mi.. we are both tired!! striving hard for our futures.. hees.. zZz... althought his busy.. but he still find time pei mi.. onli at times i still unhappy cuz we either have no place to go.. or he doesnt cum fetch mi off work.. hais.. sad!!!

2009-11-18T08:50:00.000-08:00

time flies!! soon i'm gg on holiday again!! YEAH//... 2ml i'll be working.. nvm lo.. anyway i oso got take pay de ma:) another week end cuming liao.. hahaha... very soon can complete my higher nitec ler.. endure!! 2ml start ssch at 9am.. so nice!!! so happiEE.... hahaha... yest and 2day no bring lappy gg sch.. sians... hp ear piece oso spoil.. hais... 2day at work.. the machine all down.. so mafan.. grrr.. den raining/// all wet loh... hate it most.. my shoe oso wet... den i wear slipper gg work.. lols..

2009-11-17T00:44:00.000-08:00

today take leave for 2ml exam!! tired ah.. den my house downstairs got accident.. u whole car bang into e tree... omg.. den i bring casper go down see.. hahaha///

sians.. i jus hate decision to be change..

2009-11-14T00:22:00.000-08:00

2009-11-13T22:52:00.000-08:00

2009-11-13T08:02:00.000-08:00

My Hubbie :)

2009-11-13T07:57:00.000-08:00

Joan; Wanting; Affandi...
Won this in titan:)

2009-11-13T07:37:00.000-08:00

Lian Tian Gong

2009-11-09T17:29:00.000-08:00

2009-11-01T07:09:00.000-08:00

I guess its time i let it go le ba.. alot it does hurt.. and 我是真的很舍不得！but its oso suffering staying on together.. i think our relationship is up to an end oready.. u are recommending mi to let go.. u are tired and i am.. so why are we still holding it on.. maybe... maybe by letting both of us go is e best solution that i'm finding..

我好烦啊！！

2009-11-01T06:56:00.000-08:00

I seriously wounder where when wrong?? wads e problem?? issit from me or u?? days seems to be getting shorter.. temper seems to get more.. toleration seems to get lesser.. realationship seems to get tougher.. everything seems to be wrong!! and wad should i seriously do to amend it or maintain it?? making so stress up and irritated// seems like i've got not much energy left to fought wif all these circumstance.. tired... why am i feeling lyt i'm a loner?? i tot i use to have tons to ppl around mi?? wad cuz this to happen?? is there sumthink not rite wif mi?? have i make a wrong chioce in anything?? should i let go of sumthing that i should long let go of.. but i didn realise or did notice?? or issit jus a cant bear to make decision??

2009-10-29T05:34:00.001-07:00

today hubbie 4plus cum fetch mi ler:) den after that go his house again lo.. use lappy at his house.. den his mum ask us gg buy noodle to cook.. at nite eat prawn noodle.. hees.. so full lo.. grrr..

2009-10-28T00:08:00.000-07:00

sians.. going work in few hours time ler.. 2day nv gg sch.. morning wake up feeling so so so tired.. dunno why oso.. den zZz till around 2pm/... lata dunno wann eat wad again.. now feeling hungry.. so gg cook cup noodle 1st.. hahaha.. soon.. 2ml can mit mit my hubbie ler.. grrr.. that 2pid fat buffalo..

2009-10-25T20:08:00.000-07:00

arghhh.. hubbie 1nite 1day 1 afternoon no msg baby ler.. he oways think that he has no wrong and everything is my fault.. even when he makes mi so upset and disappointed by proving to mi that facebook cafe is more important den mi.. since sat nite.. no! is now adays when ever i'm at his house, he'll ask mi bring lappy/... and he will totally concentrate on his game and neglect mi.. this which he nv notice.. Who am i to him??? i'm his girlfriend lehx.. so which should be more important?? arent i suppose to be more important den a fucking game.. he can serve the customer in e facebook cafe so well.. but his girlfriend can gg to work without having dinner.. and eventually will be working till mitnite.. and will have to rush for train which wun even have time to buy dinner home.. can he understand how i was feeling?? and yet he doesn bother.. not even a msg from him.. i guess i have to think seriously if i am able to tolerate having a boyfriend like this?? now dun even bother msg means wad?? play enough oready?? sick and tired of mi oready.. if i should have let go.. let mi noe.. dun let mi be the last to noe for everything.. thank you!

fucking S&W teacher.. everytime got problem wif her de.. arghhh.. ask us do all those stupid stuff.. for heaven sake.. if i'm not interested.. why make my life and her life difficult?? cant she just leave mi alone??

Fatty and Me!!!

YeaH!!!

22/10

2009-10-22T07:10:00.000-07:00

2day hubbie got diving till late late.. so i be good gal.. stay at home do homework whole day:) do 4 quest for e whole day and onli manage to complete 2 quest... die liao.. mrs Tan gg kill mi 2ml.. now still trying to complete everything.. hope can hand it in by 2ml.. hubbie actually say wan msg mi after his diving to check if i'm awake den can mit.. but he nv msg 1st jiu agree gg eat wif his campmate.. eventually.. i still haven eat:( den he say wann da bao over.. oso no mood eat.. sick sick wor.. zZz.. hungry but mei wei kou.. whole day chiong my acc homework.. till no time rest oso.. hais..

2009-10-20T10:13:00.000-07:00

today no gg sch.. cuz today is the stupid youth olympic den no lesson.. go oso waste my time only der.. i might as well rest at home.. so i Zzz till around 3plus den wake up.. hahaha.. hubbie came over wann fetch mi gg eat dinner.. but i bought e food from downstairs coffee shop ler.. den never bring my phone down with mi loh.. he cal mi twice.. i nv ans.. he very angry.. he say if he gg die, call mi den oso no ans.. grrr.. sorry hubbie.. i shuld have brought e phone down along with mi.. eventually he still cum to my house downstairs.. i dunno why i so "toot" de.. dunno how 2 call him 1st 2 wait for mi. reaction too slow.. i only reply him i bought my dinner liao.. den he lyt so disappointed de gg home alone.. rush down to mit but still didnt get to mit.. i feel so guilty.. hais.. this week thus cant mit hubbie.. he said got diving loh.. abit worry.. my fat buffalo now so fat ler.. dunno still can dive not.. now oso no longer young and fit liao.. den newspaper everytime say tis person drown that person sufforcate de.. making mi more worry.. dots dots.. sians la.. fri den can mit him ler.. maybe gg out tgt wif wanting, shannon, pamela and yan yan.. YEAH.. 2ml is wed/.. soon it'll be weekend again.. off day.. yahoooo... 2ml start sch at around 11... no need wake up so early.. dunno why my facebook keep on cant log in.. say wad under maintence.. den why jus now hubbie still can gg in to play my cafe and roller coster lehx?? hmmm.. arggghhhh...

20/10 1:02am

2009-10-19T09:50:00.001-07:00

Back to my busy life ler.. hais.. time passes so fast after sch reopen wor/.. zZz.. no time to even on my lappy.. wann change my weekend wworking hour to morning shift.. but dun think my boss gonna allow.. very fast.. i complete 1 semester of my sch term..:) left wif 3more term.. den i complete my course ler.. after calculating.. i think i should faster gg finish my car and bike test.. liddat by e time i finish ite course, if possible, can gg poly, den got transport gg sch ler.. think should be aming to gg temasak poly of nanyang poly ba.. den gg sch not" fang bian ler" so got bike at least easier to trAVEL.. hees. den i no need everytime let hubbie fetch here n there.. another 18months to graduate!! yeah.. have to endure no matter wad... gonna strive through tgt with my hubbie.. for our n my future, we suffer now and will enjoy in the lata part of our life:) maybe one fine day, i would like to go back fairprice and work in a higher ranking position.. i do enjoy working there.. interacting wif my customers. be it friendly or nasty.. and my coulleuges that are kind to mi. i do enjoy the working experience.

hubbie go back camp reservist ler.. zZz.. he so busy oso.. he tel mi thus cant mit.. cuz he got diving till late nite.. hais.. nvm la.. we got plenty of time in the future.. lata i c him till sian ah.. hahaha.. jkjk.. hubbie jia you wor.. [i miss you]

I oways believe that life will get beta and beta..
the worst thing that i would encounter will be the best among the worst.. :P

2009-10-16T09:42:00.000-07:00

just now go malaysia wif hubbie and his family.. go 1 big round and we sit in the car for almost 3hrs.. zZz.. shoulder pain pain ah.. sit until backside oso pain loh.. den hubbie so sick.. my poor fat buffalo.. hees.. hais.. den he still wann bring mi out.. i noe cuz he noe i still dun feel lyt going home ba.. but he sick ma.. den take mc dun rest at home.. everytime still go out wif mi.. den lata his mum dun lyt oso.. ask him go home rest den he oso unhappie.. den say go out he oso no happie after that.. dunno wad he wann oso.. zZz.. i'm so tired..

2009-10-16T00:38:00.000-07:00

the present i give hubbie for our anniversary:P

2009-10-16T00:15:00.000-07:00

Dinner at marina Square:)
we eat steak, seafood salad and oyster yummie

2009-10-16T00:10:00.000-07:00

HappiE 1 Year Anniversary to:

Joann & Andy

steamboat at punggol marina

2009-10-16T00:04:00.000-07:00

mi and hubbie go punggol marina eat steamboat and drink:)

friends

2009-10-09T23:34:00.000-07:00

2009-10-09T23:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday evening i went amk to find my baby Jasmine and her baby wif shine shine.. :) she is so rought loh.. hahaha.. baby so cute.. after that i gg down mit my hubbie finish sch.. hees.. actually wann gg watch movie.. but reach cinema we realise there's no show nice to watch.. zZz.. den we gg pasar malam.. buy fish ball and cup corn eat.. yummie.. after that we gg market eat supper.. we order satay and prawn noodle.. hmmmm... nice nice..

end to 2day 9/10

2009-10-08T08:47:00.000-07:00

just reach hm ler.. dunno why is everything now in a mess.. hope things wiill get well soon// sians// actually my bf did explain to mi.. if i nv oways let him caught mi lying.. he wun be liddat.. and it truth.. last time i dun uds why he allow mi to make friends wif sum guys and not sum.. for example.. he allow mi to make friend wif shannon.. he saw mi wif shannon, affandi, yan yan, pamela b4.. and oso didn said anything bout tiss.. And i can oso uds that he realli very zai hu wo thats why his worried bout alot of things.. his rite when he said, if he doesn care.. he wun bother so much.. my poor hubbie.. oways enduring wif my nonsense.. wei qu ta ler.
And when he argue wif my sis.. he didn mean to say bout her grand ma.. is jus an example. that i noe. He was jus refering that if my sis lyt to make friends den instead intro them n make friends wif her grandma.. my previous blog says i agree that he shld not tok till out grandma was because he ask mi to swear bout no smking. if not sumthing will happen to my relative.. and that was seriously wrong.. anyone out there wif consious shld noe that no matter wad, it is nv rite to take ur family members out to swear.. it's lyt kind of taking them to bet isnt it.. i argue wif him bout this.. alothough he explain that cuz he noe they r important to mi, that is why he ask mi to use them to swear.. but i guess tis is still not rite.. and i think eventually he noes it..
that they when i n my sis sneak out in e middle of e nite.. actually my bf wann tel my dad bout this matter.. but he onli tel my dad bout mi sneaking out,, which doesn cuz mi any inpact, and he did let my sis off.. but jus now while he send mi hm.. my sis purposely act lyt talking on the phone but yet saying very loud, next time wann scold her dun take her ah ma. and its so obvious that was to let my bf hear. at 1st he didn hear.. and i tot he hear/ so i ask him. den he told mi she was childish acting that way. and if she wann play den carry on.. his limit is up and will msg my dad again..
So much things.. but overall.. i enjoy alot wif my hubbie 2day.. we have lots of fun for our outing 2day.. the last time we enjoy so much seems to be e last trip to genting.. hope that our next trip that's cuming up soon to other country is an enjoyable trip again:)

2009-10-08T03:18:00.000-07:00

hubbie n mi gg TPY den he gg do face threading.. so ai mei de loh.. hahaha// den i siting there watch n take photo.. hees..

today very Happie:) hubbie n mi both no sch n work 2day.. morning gg his house use lappy n watch tv awhile.. den afternoon we gg toa pa yoh walk walk.. happie lo.. we normally dun hav such chance de.. cuz i will oways need to rush off to work.. zZz.. den even if i off,, wait for hubbie off work oso late ler.. gg his house eat dinner, rest awile jiu have to gg hm ler.. onli thing sad 2day is that time pass very very fast.. so fast jiu evening ler.. dunno muz wait till when den got such chance again.. "hubbie say wait till he cut his finger again den can have chance liao".."crazy de him.. i rather dun have chance liddat lohx.. grrr..

today bought alot of things/... spent quite alot of money.,. still got things haven buy finish.. now at his house, his mum cooking.. after dinner mayb can gg amk walk walk.. den c if can buy complete the things i wann buy loh:)

2009-10-06T11:41:00.000-07:00

my hubbie jus now cum fetch mi de shi hou make part of his bike.. den accidently cut his finger.. so ke lian loh.. hao xin tong wor.. so much blood.. den in e end he drive car cum down.. too painful to ride bike ler.. den we gg buy food to eat.. den he send mi hm loh.. zZz// when you hug mi, i can feel the seriousness..

today's arguement>>

2009-10-06T00:26:00.000-07:00

hAhaha.. my sis arguing wif my bf.. lols.. my sis bang him,
say friendster is ppl add her de. my sis bf allowed her to noe friends, and no need see if its guy or ger.. all is same! all are human, and her bf got trust on her, so no need others worry. wad ever thing she do, she tel her bf, and he can accept it. plus, friends are oso important. u expect gers only got a friend that are ger den muz well study gers sch, stay in gers home, work in temple!!!
den my bf say till her ah ma.. say wann make frien den intro friends to her ah ma lo.. say all guys have motive.. see her young wann cheat her, if is her ah ma den wun be e same liao.. den my sis very very angry// cuz we hate ppl tok bout our ah ma.. we ownself oso dun say bout our ah ma.. where can let ppl say!!! arghhh..
Den my sis say back wann play, play his father.. dun tok bout her ah ma.. she fucking dislike it. she say her bf not as sensative ask him.. so he oso not as selfish as him.. every msg my sis send got fuck and fucking.. lols..
Den my bf say if dun like can jus say stop.. he'll apologise.. no need fuck here n there.. hahaha.. he say only use my sis ah ma as an eg. mean no harm..
They argue till so funny.. i duno to angry or to laugh.. Now my sis say she hate mi tooo.. Oso not mi.. why get mi involve?? hais.. Ke Lian de wo.. sob sob..

2009-10-05T20:40:00.000-07:00

I just dun understand it... i noe he cares.. but at the same time.. i'm not living in my own world.. i do have friends that r not only girls.. how long more can i tolerate this?? friends that i had for years.. i've to let go?? just because of my bf?? Den wad kind of a person am i?? i noe seriously that i'm no 1 born to be control.. why cant he accept mi and my friends?? dun i have my own freedom??

He say cuz i everytime lie to him that's why he will react this way..

2009-10-05T10:31:00.000-07:00

Just reached home from work.. patch wif my boy ler.. i know he does love mi alot.. he is oways trying to protect mi, and cares alot for mi..

2day early morning.. when i still zZz/.. he jiu yi zhi call wo.. msg say i very smart hor.. delete away the msg he send to my dad telling that i sneak out at nite gg drink. he say really alot of things to mi that seriously remind mi how important i am in his heart..

yesterday when we argue.. he say alot of nasty things to mi, which i noe is words of anger.. but it does hurt. and the things he said, deep in his heart i noe, he noes it not true!

i can understand wads his worried about.. but i seriously have no idea how 2 get his trust. if i juz be alone, without any friends, will this make things better?? i wounder. but will i be happi??

he doesnt wanna lost mi.. so am i..

jus now he say wann mi bring lappy.. after i work will cum fetch mi.. end up, dissapoint mi.. if it's e 1st time he overslept.. i can still understand.. but i dun understand how cum recently keep on overslept?? or issit no heart to cum fetch?? i shuld hurry get my license.. i noe it long ago.. he said can bring mi whereever i wann.. but its not true.. he can even wake up on time to send mi home.. hais..

eating now infront of my lappy// bought tis fried rice otw home.. so hungry..grrrr//

photos r e only memories i had wif u now:)

2009-10-04T10:29:00.000-07:00

after so long de quarrel.. i let go ler.. den i realise.. actually i haven take my dinner.. hais.. now feeling hungry ler.. onli can eat cup noodles.. jus view through all e photo we had left.. you sher bu der ler.. but i know there isn't much things i can do anymore.. tis relationship has no trust between both of us.. he told me to throw and delete away everthing.. but after viewing.. i guess i'm gg keep these photo.. cuz i guess this the only memories we will hav.. and i really dun bear to delete it.. those we ever had tgt can only be treated as memories and no more ler.. asking mi to forget.. tis is wad u can do very well i guess.. but not for mi.. these memories will acc mi through..

1st nite without Andy

2009-10-04T08:08:00.000-07:00

1st nite without Andy..
i'm alone in my rooom thinking alot..
thinking wad to do?? thinking how to do..
thinking of wad he doing?? thinking of wad is his real feeling??
really no more luv for mi and hate mi??

memories cant be everything..

2009-10-04T07:42:00.000-07:00

this time round we seriously break up ler.. hais.. i oso dunno if i'll regret or not.. jus because of drinking and smking late in the midnite mif my friends.. we ended.. i dunno if i shld let gg and move on.. or wait for him.. will it works anyway// my sister explain clearly everything we did yest nite.. and i've nothing else i can explain oso.. i jus wounder.. and now.. back to reality.. wad shld i do next?? life will have to move on no matter wad.. world wun stop cuz of whu lose whu.. but at tis mean time.. wad do i do?? i'm alone now again.. sigh..

Confusing feelings

2009-10-03T21:30:00.001-07:00

quarrel again// cuz i request to smoke.. and he dun allow.. but i insist.. sumtimes i really wounder... are we suit for each other?? i know its not good to smoke.. i oso wann quit somking.. but i guess i'm over dependent on cigg.. cuz i know.. every human cum and gg.. i dunno hu will stay and hu will not.. but i know, e day i still hav money.. the day i can affort to have cigg.. cigg has no feeling, it doesnt show mi attitude.. and i hav e full control of weather i wann smk or dun wann.. therefore whenever i had nth to do, bored, i'll smk.. it had became part of my life.. i'm so use to it.. i'm not addited i know.. but i oso dun uds myself why other ppl tat are not addited could hav or dun hav cigg.. but i'll be very irritated if i dun hav... i guess i'm juz too dependen on it.. hais... wad should i do.. i do wish that i could leave on without cigg.. sumtimes.. i juz dun bear to let it gg.. my sucking character.. i dun dare to make a definate decision.. cuz i'm oways afraid that i might regret.. how>? wad to do?? out of the cigg topic>>> hubbie's demand, temper, controlling is making mi so confuse of how much i still love him?? am i wrong?? no one is perfect,, and i shuld not expect him to be perfect.. but wad will he give in?? why am i having this feeling that i'm the onli one that's oways giving in.. am i wrong to have this kind of thinking?? i juz wounder.. i can only have many conclusion now.. am i important to him.. will there be any different if he let mi gg and i realli gg?? will he feel sad if i leave him??

sains..

2009-10-02T21:02:00.000-07:00

hais// 2day really dun feel lyt working.. but cant be so irresponsible.. if i oways suddenly dun gg work den e working system will be cock up.. sians.. going out with my hubbie ler... gg buy table lamp.. cuz my previous table lamp ppl take away and say spoil liao.. dunno realli spoil or wad oso.. hais.. my house is a mess.. drawing a line wit everyone.. wad a family i'm in.. nvm.. i believe i can survive.. i'm on my own!!!

2009-10-02T05:14:00.000-07:00

Went Holiday at Genting hees.. So cold wor! bUrrr.. Go everywhere Oso lyt got air-con liddat lo. I manage to sneak into the casino for 2 times.. yeah! we oso go theme park.. so cooling. we go sit the high high drop down lyt jumping down from high building liddat.. so scary.. roller coaster and ex.. all games we play "zhuan dao liao" hahaha.. only the station for superman oways dun hav:( we oso play the bumper car, tgt gg bang young kids.. so evil lo.. Muahahahaha

My cutE hubbie:$

2009-10-02T05:07:00.000-07:00

Soooo Cute lohx.. He got bird face hahaha
dun you think that he really looks like the bird.. what a good animal acter. <<>> huggies my beloved:P

Haw Paw Villa

2009-10-02T04:35:00.000-07:00

Went to haw paw villa wit my hubbie:) raining loh:( gg through e "18 stage of hell" den have to find shelter. after that we go feed the fish there.. we buy 1packet of "yu liao" feed those hungry fish.. hehehe

Loving You:)

2009-10-02T04:17:00.000-07:00

hEeS.. at marina take der photo:)

I wonder Why; I wonder How??

2009-09-29T22:24:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was another quarrel... hais.. u make mi feel lyt u juz wann create arguement so tat i wuld break up wif u?? really wad u wann?? i cant believe it! sigh.. i dunno wad else i can do.. u begging mi let gg?? words of anger oways out from our mouth but not from our heart// why does both parties tat care so much jus wann use those few words to hurt?? is there a need for that.. i seriously wounder.. zZz

It takes 2 hand to clap.. if theres a fault, both shld be responsible..